Here I am again. Staring at my laptop wanting to say something. So badly. But I honestly do not know how to start pouring whatever thoughts that are in my head on this virtual paper. Strange.
I have not been very productive lately. Much to my dismay. Sometimes it got me thinking whether I should just jump into cold water and deal with it. Being Gemini does not help much I guess because Gemini tends to over-think too much, all the time. Waaay too much. Most of the time, thinking too much only delay action and I need not preach on how action speaks louder than word or (thinking).*sigh*
It is frustrating to realize that your life is being put on hold and you can't move on. The worst thing is I only have myself to be blamed. This situation has taught me a lot of things. I have learn a lot about myself this past one month. Things that I thought I knew or things that I was so sure about before seems to take a 180 degree turns.
But I am glad. Glad to know that whatever it is/was that is happening to me is actually rooted from my own action and I should own up to it and take responsibility. As soon as I am aware of this fact, I feel slightly better about the whole thing. After all, this is so not then end of the world. They are a lot of other less unfortunate people in this world that are suffering the worst kind of tragedy one could imagine and for me, to complaint and to whine about a teeny tiny mishap that happened to me will only make me sound like an ungrateful, unmitigated and incomprehensive arse!
To all the (super)great people in my life, I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for always there for me. Always. Maybe all of you listen to Bon Jovi waaay to much. hehehe. You know who you are. Without you people, I could probably be banging my head on the wall by now.(to the detriment of my "gorgeous" face of course.
Last but not least, fully aware that today is already 28th January, I would like to wish you, yes,you, the one who read this, a very happy new year. Let's reinvent ourselves this year and may 2010 be one freakin' great year for all of us :)
